dec. 29

it's like watching cocoons uncoil
slowly sprawling apart
like ink dancing with water
curling and vomiting out

it's like eyelid acid trips
and wearing tyedye to church
cross language spit in kindergarten
the things that make throats lurch

i'm the water that runs through granite
crawling through empty cracks
you're the elements i cannot be
the counterparts i lacked

dec 16

You created a chemical change
Something irreversible
You've given everything a new state
To my test tube brain

I feel so uneasy
Like I'm on a sitting in a sailboat
Strung behind a carousel
That won't let me be

And the heavy weights
That anchor my heart down
Can be so unforgiving
When I need them around

And the barrier I build up
Is useless when in use
Because it can only let itself down
Near the vanity of you

In a skeletal quaking
My bones, they all shook
Rearranged themselves mistaking
A backbone for no use

Everything I picked apart
Magnetized itself back together
I can't pry myself off of it
I was not made for bad weather

for fuck's sake.

I drove your heart to Mexico
In a three wheeled, second hand car
The license plate expired and
The break lights never turned on
Weight always shifted to one side
Nothing could ever stay center
So we drove on top of dotted lines
And kept your cigarettes in a jar
On the dashboard

I hung a dream catcher above your head
In attempts to cast a spell on you
So that you would dream about me
The way people always do
The keys, they sang out of tune
The same way you sing to mine
And the tranquility that erupted from the screeching tires
Reminded me of your candour
Spiked in my coffee

You counted the rips in the interior
Of the elderly scented car
It amounted to the numbers
Of the hours we spent apart
And when you asked if we were there yet
I asked you the same thing back
I don't think that we're ever going to get there
I don't even own a map
Can you handle that?

False Innuendo

Your two cents rust me right through
Your sentences have turned me on
I've got mountains raised along my limbs
My hands are shaking, so are my arms

I wish you'd look at me without a lens cap
And see the things I wish to convey
You've misunderstood love so many times
I don't know how to get up again

And the jubilee of imperfection
Is in a self titled manner
I will never be like them
Not even if it's what I wanted

I strummed a melody on your vocal chords
I just wanted some type of progression
But the notes went sour
My legs are weak
I'm too unstable to support my heart
Too unstable to let myself be

dec. 8

I threw my hands up
I let them kiss the sky
And as I exhaled your words
The birds they flew by
But they never stopped to sing

So you waited at the station
For the train that wouldn't come
And in our battle of attrition
You ate up victory, I'm done
I said I was done

You get angry that she's quiet
I am sad, because you are too
When you stained my shirt
With the mirror shards
I never thought it would turn blue

I hung my shoes on a wire
Like bittersweet mistletoe
You treat them like a ladder
A place you cannot go
But it's where I stand

Your eyelids they flickered
And I decided to leave
I don't know if you need me there
Or would wait for me
But I couldn't breathe

Like a volcano on a hillside
I brought myself down
My thoughts no longer fit
Where they should stay
I watched everything burn itself down

asdfasdf

You're a magnet in my bed of nails
Try and shake this off
The way you washed you hair
With bright blue tears
And never tried to talk

You slurp up broken mirrors
But you can't ever shake this off
Images floated down
And slept in your stomach
While you ran from being caught

Well I keep on repeating
The lines of broken songs
And I've settled for
The tick of your watch
To cool my shaking nerves

When I ask if you're okay
Just please move your teeth
Leave them exactly where they were
And always return to me
Don't mop up all of your sorrows
With the hands that pushed you down
Melting clocks will soon disappear
But I could always be around

I'll be around